Whoever possesses the following three traits is of the disciples of our father Abraham; and whoever possesses the opposite three traits is of the disciples of the wicked Balaam. The disciples of our father Abraham have a good eye, a humble spirit and a meek soul. The disciples of the wicked Balaam have an evil eye, a haughty spirit and a greedy soul. What is the difference between the disciples of our father Abraham and the disciples of the wicked Balaam? The disciples of our father Abraham benefit in this world and inherit the World To Come, and as is stated, "To bequeath to those who love Me there is, and their treasures I shall fill" (Proverbs 8:21). The disciples of the wicked Balaam inherit purgatory and descend into the pit of destruction, as is stated, "And You, G-d, shall cast them into the pit of destruction; bloody and deceitful men, they shall not attain half their days. And I shall trust in you" (Psalms, 55:24) (Ethics of Our Fathers 5:22)
The gentile prophet Balaam is the protagonist in this week’s parsha. The parsha begins with the Moabite king Balak having retained Balaam to curse the Jews. Balaam, whom the Midrash describes as having reached Moses’ level of prophesy, gladly acquiesced; that is for the right price of course! Ultimately, G-d prevented Balaam from cursing the Jews, so he delivered a curse disguised as a blessing. He also advised Balak on the way of seducing the Jewish People to sin. That suggestion was implemented, and it cost many Jewish lives including one of its leaders. Despite all of Balaam’s evil acts, he ended off his case for not cursing the Jews with a heartfelt plea: "Let my soul die the death of “yesharim” (a term describing the righteous which literally means 'straight'). [23:10]” The Talmud explains that the “yesharim” refers to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. Balaam could not care less to live a righteous life, but he sure did not want to bear the consequences of his iniquities. He wanted to have it all. He wanted to live a wanton life, and to receive the same reward that the most Holy people of all time received. He knew where the truth lied. He simply had no desire to own up to it.
Rabbi Chaim Shmuelevitz, (1902–1978), the Mirrer Rosh Yeshiva, is very bothered with the seeming disparity between Balaam’s actions and desires. Here was a man who had reached the pinnacle of prophesy. He knew where the truth was, yet the Mishna in Avos describes his students as having the worst possible traits; the exact opposite traits of the students of our Patriarch Abraham. Was he suffering from schizophrenia?
Rabbi Shmuelevitz offers a very important insight into the complex world of the human psyche. Balaam was neither the first nor the last intellectual who wanted to have it all. He philosophized and intellectualized for hours on end, but that had no relevance to the way he led his life. His emotional draws were not influenced whatsoever by the realities of G-d and the truth that exists. Sure, he wanted the full reward in the World to Come, but he was not willing to invest in that stock at all. He was so removed from G-dliness that the only teaching that stuck with his students was his being a role model for an evil eye, a haughty spirit and a greedy soul. Balaam did whatever he could do to avoid the truth. If there was any candidate for conversion, he was the prime candidate. His heart however held him back.
Balaam’s quandary is faced by so many Jews worldwide. The truth stares us in the face, but the desires of the outside world are quite overwhelming. So how do we break out of the Balaam syndrome? By realizing that we can have it all. The greatest pleasure in the world is living a life of meaning. The Torah lifestyle is our answer to Balaam. It seems daunting and that is what prevented Balaam from taking the plunge. We cannot afford the same mistake.
May we merit to have it all.